In Memory of the Past

We are thrust into life, not by choice but by random chance. We are dropped on this earth at a location picked by chance events of others lives. We are given genetic characteristics, and develop in a environment that happens to exist where and when we are dropped. Early on, some are expected to have gratitude for these chance events, even when much of our life has been spent in pain, even thinking the pains are normal. Later we make our own choices, based on feelings, aberrations of the future, opportunities that we perceive, often finding that when we arrive, the future we were promised does not exist, and we are left scrambling.

We are individuals, going through life mostly alone, or with someone else, but separate. By the time some of us have figured it out, it is gone, or changed so much. We now live in a overpopulated world of people who are too psychopathic on average. Not a pleasant place, but if we dart from one safe environment to the next, it is ok, and in the end we all just die anyway.

We are dropped on this world without influence, and some rise to a position of influence, but looking around, I do not see many nice people in these positions of influence. I do see a lot of not so nice people doing what ever they do, usually in search of money, and doing what they can to get by. There are some nice people mixed in. There are some nice in all the un-nice, few are all one way or the other, but I think, the number of ugly personalities is growing, fast.

We make the decisions we make for the reasons we make them, right or wrong. We did the best we could at the time. We can have no regret nor guilt. We can paint on our attitude of gratitude, peace, contentment, joy, wonder, understanding, whatever, and get on with living. Most lives are just common, unlike the fictional super humans of TV, just common. Some are money grubbers, forsaking ethics for money. It is likely the most common unsavory characteristic of these times.

Time is linear, one way, relatively consistent, and not something anyone can control. It has no beginning nor end, and is not circular. It is an unknown to mathematics shape, stretching back to negative infinity, and forward to positive infinity, which is a contradiction in terms, as that is two infinity, which cannot exist, by definition of infinity, so perhaps it is only say half infinity each way. But this does not matter to my lifetime.

As young adults we make decision, that set the course of our lives, for better or worse. We cannot hold any reservation nor regret. We must give life our full effort in one direction, choices are required. That is life.